Progress in Steps

Each day i am making it a point to move one step towards at least one goal. Today i worked towards two...

i started by working on cleaning an area so i can have an office again. The hutch has a long way to go, but the start i made today is impressive. Now it's down to the piddly stuff.

This afternoon i got a phone call from a girlfriend i don't usually hear from often on the phone. She called to tell me about her life and stuff, kind of an up-date call, and then asked how i was doing, what was new... i decided that as a friend it was right for me to update her about my life recently, and besides, reconnecting with people is high on my list of things to work towards. I proceeded with no details and basic facts, nothing more.

She was more wonderful than i could have asked for. i haven't told almost anyone so i was a wreck doing it, but she was supportive and warm and loving... and then she kicked my ass for being sad. Gods bless her for opening my eyes to being self piteous! It isn't about me being hurt or sad or wounded... it's about holding my head up knowing i did what was right for me. Yes, there is loss, but she echoed back to me something i had told her almost two years ago: You just don't fuck with momma tiger and stay in the den alive! I was right - AM right!

Time to hear my own voice. Chin up! Head high! I have a right to my own happiness, and i know darned well it starts with me. Now.