Spelunking

Slept in black socks. Emotions. Reactions. Superficial distance from my self. Swam in them. Drown in them.

W! "You are lost." Yeah.

i didn't see it before but it's no wonder i can't find my footing enough to let myself risk. Keeping a tight hold on my bad judgement, anger and guilt is real, but easier than doing the work i need to do now... this is the hard part. But then again - this is the real part, the necessary part of putting me back together; of making the inner me stronger, more knowledgeable, more capable of seeing patterns and avoiding the same mistakes.

The answers lie in me, so i'm headed to my cave to find them.