Face to Face

Well i did it.
i went on a date with someone new.
i sat across from a man i hardly knew and had a good long talk.
He didn't run out the back door upon seeing me.
He didn't cower at my life, or who i am.
i looked into his eyes and didn't shrink away
(though it took all my courage.)
Intense steel blue/grey eyes.
Clear windows with a warm smile.
Even shared a laugh or two.
No kissing on a first date.
When was the last time i said that?!

As a matter of fact, before i left to meet him, he wrote these words to me:
"I have never been seduced by what I saw.... (or didn't see).... but rather it is the confirmation of the person as real, when I hear and feel what comes from within."

i felt the same.
He's a whole and real person and i enjoyed his company very much.
Taking it a step at a time. He's not a drug to which i will allow myself to become addicted. i will not lose myself. There is no abyss this time.

This - is major progress.

Now, we'll see if he calls tomorrow! ;)