My Motif

Posting's been sparse. It's a symptom of my hamstering mind... finding the balance that suits me and my life. If there's any theme here and in my life that's it: Balance.

Where i find my balance in any given situation might be tremendously different from other people. i've made my peace with that.

i am not one to be "in charge" or the decision maker unless i feel it's needed in order to create a stable balance. Oh yes, i am perfectly comfortable and capable of stepping into that role, i simply prefer not to unless it's needed because i step into it with strength... so much so that people who only see that don't recognize me when i am able to drop it.

In my home it is needed.
In my classrooms (now 6 of them) it is needed.
As an employee it is needed.
Dealing with parents it is needed.
Dealing with blood family it is needed.

In my personal relationships i specifically seek for it not to be needed. i'm not always successful in that endevour. Of course, people in whom i can place that level of trust is not something that is abundant. Now i am learning that over time even those people i have trusted before can disappoint in reciprocating that trust. (That one stung.)

So - look for the theme to return time and again as i seek my unique balance to posting, to relationships of all sorts, and to life in general.