"Life is a contact sport!" me
i've put myself on the "people person" sidelines for a few months now and i think that i'm finally getting ready to get back in the game of life.
This doesn't mean that i have dealt with everything i need to yet, i haven't. It does acknowledge that i know there's more to do, that it comes in waves, and that i can lead my life in an honorable and ethical way even while i take my time to continue to process with my demons.
Yes, i am still under my rock in many ways. Yes, it still has dark places. No, i am not ready to throw myself into a relationship yet. There is simply no way that i am attaching myself to anyone without a heart that is in tact and a clear head. How horrible of me if i did!
In fact, "no" seems to be my current theme song when it comes to the "fresh meat" sign over my head. Lately that flat-out no is softening to a "no thank you i'm flattered" or even a "no, i'm not ready yet", or rarely a "yes, well maybe, but not yet". It all adds up the same, but it's a huge step for me to even allow myself this crack in my well-built wall.
And then there are days like today, when my away message says: "Some days life is a joy." :)
About Me
- me
- I'm an ornery wench. Just trust me on this one. :) my loves: coffee, road trips, learning, teaching, music of all sorts, firelight, intentional family, being at water's edge, intense conversations, boundless laughter, clearance sales. I'm a peacemaker, facilitator and problem solver. A fiend for conscious choice and personal responsibility. Nothing is sexier to me than brains and talent. I strive for nothing less than radical honesty. I expect nothing less than that endeavour in return.
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