Monday, April 02, 2007

The Motif: Inversion 1

There's a balance to be had between what is my responsibility and what belongs to others.

Tonight i found out that my self-preservation-distance between me and my blood family (mostly my mother - not my sisters) has caused one of my sisters to choose to shut me out of her life. Yes, i do realize that this is her choice to do this and not my responsibility. Maybe she thinks she's "punishing me"? For what? Really it hurts us both and our children.

Still, it was painful to hear (hear, mind you, not be told) in one lump sum that she'd had major surgery, bought a new car, and is planning to move out of state in a matter of months!

i think #1, who heard it all first, is in a little bit of shock over it all.

i wish my sister well. i have never once wished her ill.

i have a question of balance here though...
Why does the act of maintaining connection with the blood relatives always seem to fall squarely in MY LAP alone!? Is there ever going to be effort coming in the other direction?

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