i am more centered, grounded and happy than i have been in many months. i'm calmer, much more aware and appreciative of the abundance in my life. i have proven beyond a doubt to myself that i can "go there" in my submission. i CAN subvert my will to another. Perhaps even to my own detriment!
i am also very wary of people's intentions, afraid to risk, skittish to be touched, plagued by endorphin cravings, and trust no one with anything that cannot be verified.
By focusing on the aspects that support the positive, and acknowledging the negative, i am slowly gaining better control over the entire picture.
